Links on the science of happiness and wellbeing (more on the way, add if you know any):
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/programmes/happiness_formula/4880272.stm
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
free to be and not be there
A guy at work did not show up yesterday. the store turned out to be closed,
a befriended visitor called me around noon. It had happened before, a few times.
The operation to cancel is easy: call someone. My collegue somehow does not.
He turns of his phone for the entire day, and cannot be reached by anyone.
Today he is back. Upon my request he let me know that he will be working. I
do not have to end my holidays and feel relief. These days with my daugther
at my parents' house are worth a million dollars to me.
I wonder. How to deal with these ocurrences well. I have tried to agree with John
that he calls in case he is not able to work. Just call. Three minutes. It turns out
he cannot. The day is too dark, the clouds in his head too thick to do anything.
Another solution? When he is not well, i cannot reach him in the morning. So if such
happens, i need to find someone else to work? But then, if he turns out to be there,
we have two people working on the same day. Which is better than no one. It could
work.
Sack him? It does make me very angry that he leaves the store closed, does not call,
nor is available to anyone for our phone calls. It entered my mind. Now, a day later,
it is okay again. A gentle and tender feeling has won over the anger i felt yesterday.
He works hard, the store was only closed for 2,5 hours, and he replied to my calls
today. Those would be arguments for keeping the relationship flowing. They are after
the fact of simply feeling to forgive myself and him. Get rid of the anger, understand
that he is probably much more troubled than i am.
Better it would be to keep up with his emotional state, feed ourselves with ease and joy,
and make sure that there is sufficient other support for him to not get overworked.
And, allow myself to be free and not be there. Not responsible, not there to control
others. Just get to the simplest, most true way of being and the cooperation that
follows from there.
a befriended visitor called me around noon. It had happened before, a few times.
The operation to cancel is easy: call someone. My collegue somehow does not.
He turns of his phone for the entire day, and cannot be reached by anyone.
Today he is back. Upon my request he let me know that he will be working. I
do not have to end my holidays and feel relief. These days with my daugther
at my parents' house are worth a million dollars to me.
I wonder. How to deal with these ocurrences well. I have tried to agree with John
that he calls in case he is not able to work. Just call. Three minutes. It turns out
he cannot. The day is too dark, the clouds in his head too thick to do anything.
Another solution? When he is not well, i cannot reach him in the morning. So if such
happens, i need to find someone else to work? But then, if he turns out to be there,
we have two people working on the same day. Which is better than no one. It could
work.
Sack him? It does make me very angry that he leaves the store closed, does not call,
nor is available to anyone for our phone calls. It entered my mind. Now, a day later,
it is okay again. A gentle and tender feeling has won over the anger i felt yesterday.
He works hard, the store was only closed for 2,5 hours, and he replied to my calls
today. Those would be arguments for keeping the relationship flowing. They are after
the fact of simply feeling to forgive myself and him. Get rid of the anger, understand
that he is probably much more troubled than i am.
Better it would be to keep up with his emotional state, feed ourselves with ease and joy,
and make sure that there is sufficient other support for him to not get overworked.
And, allow myself to be free and not be there. Not responsible, not there to control
others. Just get to the simplest, most true way of being and the cooperation that
follows from there.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
" Beingness means "Consciousness", or "Knowledge". The mind attending to other things is what is meant by bondage. The mind when not attending to anything else, is Brahman. When there is no thinking about the objects in th mind, the mind is clean, it is still. That is the state of Brahman. When you are happily asleep, it is natural joy, or Brahman without any emotion. "That" which does not have any state, or attitude, is beyond emotion. It is is "You" who is the knower of the entire world, the body, the mind, and the sense organs. That "You" is the "Supreme Self" (Paramatman). To realize Paramatman is the final achievement. This knowing is itself a mystery. Drop the desire to pursue sense objects. One who ceases to desire wealth automatically becomes very powerful. " 4. The Self is the Knower in All Beings, morning, 19-11-1934, p.93, Master of Self-Realization, Shri Sadguru Siddharameshwar Maharaj.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Pure Consciousness at the Sea Surf
It has been my quest over the last several years to 'reach' the stage
of spiritual evolution characterized by what Nisargadatta Maharaj
calls 'I am' consciousness, and his master (Siddharameshwar) pure
consciousness.
I have been doing so, because preceding that understanding, i did not
feel myself ready to say anything about economics, and certainly not
about the reform of our economy towards one based on holistic principles.
I slowly am ready to research the topic. After finally having gotten to know
my real self a bit in Vedic terms, i dare to rely on that inner knowing
when writing and studying economics, my main interest in life.
Pure consciousness is characterized by a complete partaking in all that happens
inside and outside the body-mind, while being fully conscious (that is, fully unattached,
purely present). It is as if the body-mind apparatus just do their thing (thinking, feeling,
sensing, emoting, intuiting, working, doing, talking, acting, writing, drawing), without
their being anyone doing it.
People who progress further on the path understand this even better: they have
lost every and all sense of a personal self doing anything.
The change in behavior is enormous once this and the formerly described stage is 'reached'.
Since yesterday i hardly feel like smoking, drinking wine or eating heavy and sugary. I feel
more like eating healthy, being healthy, doing things which help people and make the world
more beautiful. I have phone calls with friends and family, spontaneously doing the same
thing i always wanted to do but did not care for. Now i do, effortlessly. I also write like
crazy on this computer. whereas i used to correct every fifth letter i type, now it is with amazing
speed that these words arrive on the screen. Doubt is disappearing quickly, on what i have to do,
how things work and whether i am doing the right thing. I do not need the knowledge, it will arrive, or i will find it.
i will try to describe, even when knowing it is near to impossible
It so happened when i looked at the sea in Noordwijk, on December 26 at 13oo hours Dutch Time. In the middle of my awareness watching the sea something was standing completely
still. not any movement, not any urge to have the eyes go left or right. fixated, as if encarcerated
like Hopkins in silence of the lambs. The stillness did not extend to the sea, which was moving like it always does. It was in my brain and in the center of my vision that complete silence and
stillness existed, and remains since then. Everything else moves: thoughts about work, emotions when my daughter does not go to sleep, my shoulders which hurt from maltreatment. The center
is quiet. And, the center is me. Since the event (of which there have been a few, differing in intensity and meaning), i cannot doubt anymore where I is. It is right there, between my eyes,
in the center of my brain, all quiet and pure and still.
What else. Real coffee. More words another day.
of spiritual evolution characterized by what Nisargadatta Maharaj
calls 'I am' consciousness, and his master (Siddharameshwar) pure
consciousness.
I have been doing so, because preceding that understanding, i did not
feel myself ready to say anything about economics, and certainly not
about the reform of our economy towards one based on holistic principles.
I slowly am ready to research the topic. After finally having gotten to know
my real self a bit in Vedic terms, i dare to rely on that inner knowing
when writing and studying economics, my main interest in life.
Pure consciousness is characterized by a complete partaking in all that happens
inside and outside the body-mind, while being fully conscious (that is, fully unattached,
purely present). It is as if the body-mind apparatus just do their thing (thinking, feeling,
sensing, emoting, intuiting, working, doing, talking, acting, writing, drawing), without
their being anyone doing it.
People who progress further on the path understand this even better: they have
lost every and all sense of a personal self doing anything.
The change in behavior is enormous once this and the formerly described stage is 'reached'.
Since yesterday i hardly feel like smoking, drinking wine or eating heavy and sugary. I feel
more like eating healthy, being healthy, doing things which help people and make the world
more beautiful. I have phone calls with friends and family, spontaneously doing the same
thing i always wanted to do but did not care for. Now i do, effortlessly. I also write like
crazy on this computer. whereas i used to correct every fifth letter i type, now it is with amazing
speed that these words arrive on the screen. Doubt is disappearing quickly, on what i have to do,
how things work and whether i am doing the right thing. I do not need the knowledge, it will arrive, or i will find it.
i will try to describe, even when knowing it is near to impossible
It so happened when i looked at the sea in Noordwijk, on December 26 at 13oo hours Dutch Time. In the middle of my awareness watching the sea something was standing completely
still. not any movement, not any urge to have the eyes go left or right. fixated, as if encarcerated
like Hopkins in silence of the lambs. The stillness did not extend to the sea, which was moving like it always does. It was in my brain and in the center of my vision that complete silence and
stillness existed, and remains since then. Everything else moves: thoughts about work, emotions when my daughter does not go to sleep, my shoulders which hurt from maltreatment. The center
is quiet. And, the center is me. Since the event (of which there have been a few, differing in intensity and meaning), i cannot doubt anymore where I is. It is right there, between my eyes,
in the center of my brain, all quiet and pure and still.
What else. Real coffee. More words another day.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
who r u (I)
Every thought on the world, on our life, on you or me, can and will always remain partly true. The thought conceives the truth which it expresses, but does so in words which can hardly describe the truth from which it arose. For example, when it is conceived that nothing needs to be done, nothing needs to be said, and everything is effortless, this remains a conception which does not cover the whole truth encountered in that to which Advaita points.
The conception of God, or Brahman, or Tao, or Sunyata, encounter the same problem as every other conception of what eternal happiness is about. It remains a construct of reality, which arises out of the and within the space of the eternal complete which allows no concept because in itself it is complete. But yes, it can be felt, as it was always there and yes, it can also be uncovered. The sense of completeness can also grow, but only in the sense that it is less and less covered by the distortions resulting from the root cause of duality: the sense of I separate from all else.
Whatever doubt may rise, it cannot rise without the rising of you- the first to have risen- who raised it. Therefore the primal doubt, namely that of not knowing who you are, is the root of all doubts (Saddhu Om, I, p. 163) Only if the first person exists, will the second and third person arise (Ulladha Narpadha, verse 14)
When the concept of I has become visible, one can remain in that which is aware of that concept and its actions. That in which one resides does not have a beginning nor end, cannot be conceptualized, but is continuously present, one with all that arises, and has been there at least since you were born.
So long as our power of attention was dwelling upon second and third persons, it was called the mind or the intellect and its attending was called a doing (Kriya) or an action (karma). Only that which is done by the mind is an action. As soon as the attention is fixed on the first person (or Self), it loses its mean names such as mind, intellect or ego sense. Moreover, the attention is no longer even on action but inaction (akarma) or the state of being still (summa irrutal) (Sadhu Om, I, p.104-105)
This sense of being still with all that arises within and surrounding the stillness, is where the fun starts. from there all arises effortlessly, as there is no one remaining who needs to understand, create, plan or change anything. That which is created arises instantly, automatically, intuitively, out of the u which has become synonymous to the objects within you.
As thoughts are always partially true (they are yours) and only exist because u exist, it is easily derived that the thoughts are as much an illusion as every other creation of a separate u.
The conception of God, or Brahman, or Tao, or Sunyata, encounter the same problem as every other conception of what eternal happiness is about. It remains a construct of reality, which arises out of the and within the space of the eternal complete which allows no concept because in itself it is complete. But yes, it can be felt, as it was always there and yes, it can also be uncovered. The sense of completeness can also grow, but only in the sense that it is less and less covered by the distortions resulting from the root cause of duality: the sense of I separate from all else.
Whatever doubt may rise, it cannot rise without the rising of you- the first to have risen- who raised it. Therefore the primal doubt, namely that of not knowing who you are, is the root of all doubts (Saddhu Om, I, p. 163) Only if the first person exists, will the second and third person arise (Ulladha Narpadha, verse 14)
When the concept of I has become visible, one can remain in that which is aware of that concept and its actions. That in which one resides does not have a beginning nor end, cannot be conceptualized, but is continuously present, one with all that arises, and has been there at least since you were born.
So long as our power of attention was dwelling upon second and third persons, it was called the mind or the intellect and its attending was called a doing (Kriya) or an action (karma). Only that which is done by the mind is an action. As soon as the attention is fixed on the first person (or Self), it loses its mean names such as mind, intellect or ego sense. Moreover, the attention is no longer even on action but inaction (akarma) or the state of being still (summa irrutal) (Sadhu Om, I, p.104-105)
This sense of being still with all that arises within and surrounding the stillness, is where the fun starts. from there all arises effortlessly, as there is no one remaining who needs to understand, create, plan or change anything. That which is created arises instantly, automatically, intuitively, out of the u which has become synonymous to the objects within you.
As thoughts are always partially true (they are yours) and only exist because u exist, it is easily derived that the thoughts are as much an illusion as every other creation of a separate u.
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